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Yesterday i did the unthinkable=) haha.. i totally ran a marathon of 10km up the hill of Mount Faber. The excruciating pain at my right knee cap be the witness to my endurance and my motivation till the end. Thanks Fadz and Hus for cheering me on. My main goal was to conqeur the distance which i wanted to do since end of NS and another is to mark the use-to-be special day. 14th of every month. Well i guess its no longer special uh. Well i'm gonna do it to remember something which meant a lot to me. A day by which i remembered as an end towards by wildly behaviour. A day which i know the meaning of love and bittersweet.

khairuddin

ps,
 Happy Birthday to you OSN!! haha

Wah! i've manage to do loads of things in this 5 months of my life in year 2009.
I'm saying thanks to God that He fulfilled my prayers. Alhamdulillah!

1) Passed my Bike TP =))
2) Got her back, alhamdulillah =) Syukran Jazilan.
3) Earned some moolahs for uni=)) hehehe
4) Got a permanent 326bucks job a month insyaAllah till october =)
5) Went for a short holiday trip to Redang =)) to snorkel. My young ambition fulfilled.Yayness.

Next half of the year:
6) Gonna go for my 10km run with my Con Brothers. Wait for me. I think i'll walk towards the   end.=PP hehx. Ariel please acc me okay!!!
7)  Gonna master guitar so i can serenade to my future patients =))
8)  Start on my driving lessons =))
9)  Start SCHOOL!!! =)))))) YIPPIES!!
10) InsyaAllah, hope she wun run away again haha.. Yet again =pppppp
11) ............................ more to come =))))


khairuddin. =) Elated

Helllo peeps. been awhile since i post something.. Well u got me ath.. Keep quiet bout it. Well to that person.. 1 lifeline. 1 chance. Use it.

Just came back from malaysia two days ago.. it was awsome!! 2 hours ride to my kampong. All the way speeding on the highways at a humble 145km/hr average. WOW~!~ it was yayness! although the helmet doesn't help me from feeling quessy and mingrainy. Felt like puking all the way. The helmet was too tight so it kind of cling to my forehead so my migraine start to act up.

And thanks dad! he gave me the keys to the bike as we bout to enter the place.. it was still about 15km more.. WOW!! haha.. ape lagi.. try lah!! it was his super 4. The minute i switch the machine on.. Vooom.. I felt empowered.. haha.. With great powers comes great responsibilities. Whatever!!

I sped the whole way. Maintaining at 135km/hr. Overtaking two trailers, 3 cars and 4 motorcycles. Shiokness surrounds me!! thanks dad!..

And i felt bloated going back to kampong cz we ate and ate and ate and ate loads of nice foood. Met nyais and yahyis. It was serene and not forgetting my youngest auntie, fatin at 16 years old. haha. Amacm fad nak tackle tak?? haha

Yesterday did my prac. Bought some spare parts for my future bike. hahak. Jgn main main. Its an old bike but with the heart of a young man. Vroom!!. Hopefully can pass my Tp in a weeks time.. InsyaAllah amin!.

jz went swimming. Saw few students. and now fattening myself with donuts haha.. Adios.

To you: have a nice holiday though ur in malaysia now. I fetch u tml alright??... And i don't miss you Wakakak!!!


Khairuddin.
JS
Con brothers.

Hey yesterday was quite fun. Well it's hard for me because i need to rush from point A to point B then to point C. Had mendaki the first half of the day. 80bucks free because i had to just invigilate them because it's SA1. Like i predicted loads will come late for the test. I knew it coz i'm a Mendaki student myself but i don't come late usually the rest will. I'm a good student.. Chey.. Puji diri sendiri. Nevermind. I marked the mathematics paper and it was atrocius. Out of 12 students and not  to mention only 10 turned up for the test, 3 passed the test. Well the others was the ususal careless mistakes and concepts wise. I taught them but they are all sok pintar(thanks tini for this term) think they are very very smart. Well i'm going to give them a taste of what smart means next saturday. Wah! I've yet to touch the English papers. HOpefully i won't vomit blood.

Next. Semarak Temasek. Rushed from HOugang Sec to Temasek JC. HEy it's as if i was travelling to JB. With the scorching heat, humidity and not enuf sleep(myfault) luckily it was a straight bus to Tampines INterchange. Bus 72 from YCKMRT. hehe Hopefully some people take notice bout the bus number and may it be usefull to you guys. Took 38 from Tampines.. CIkgu Radz sms me that the bus journey will take around 45minutes.. WHAT!! i was like.. shit i'm gonna be late. And i don't like to be late. Impression babe. IMpression. Well the bus ride was comfy. ANything with an AirCon it's comfy. And i was damn hungry. Apple Juice With Pulp really help covering up the KrrkRkkk sound of mr tummy. ANNNNNDDD i made a friend in the bus. Nice knowing u Farah.. Well we are heading to the same place and me and her are clueless abou the place. Well i just said to her "If u see malay with nice clothes dropping off, perhaps that's the place" True enuf. hahKz!. I tot it was some play of sort but it was a competition. It was unique. With famous judged and MP gracing the event it was a successful event. But some flaws we need to put aside as it was a maiden event by the JC. Well it was a job well done. BUt i seriously need to comment. All the girls voice suck! OOpz am i being harsh?. Well i don't need to dig my ears for a loong lonng time. Everyone is not tuned. It was a disaster except for two lady. Argh! Sakit giler.

Then rushed to meet Hus at Bedok MRt. Sorry Hus. I know i'm late. will make amends later. hahakz.! She looks simple and cute. Oh wells. Saw Ata. Shud have brought her book to pass it to her. Tak bilang seh go orchard. haha. if not can give what. ape dah!. Now the main thing. THe ConBrothers. THey are super duper late. Coz why?.. the driver don't know where to go. He wants to make an impression towards Hus. haha.. it was rather funny. Zul i congatulate u for that. Mcm dah janji eh korang?.. wore the same green shirt. haha. Accc Hus to sign up for her Shape Run! Run Husna Run! haha. Luckily it's for woman. Knowing her, she'll drag me along to run too. Nope sorry.. i Can only roll.. Running is too penat for me. Sorray!. And we asked Zul to acc and talk to her. haha. Ape lah ini budak.. Itu pun nak kena ajar ker?. Nak con tak tahu con. hahkz.

Then went to buy her Crumpler. Actually i wanted to buy one. But i guess i just want to take a look first. THere's two bag which i totally fell in love with. Can i get two instead of 1 hahakz! Feeling greedy weedy!. Hus bought her crumpler bag. Very funny. The bag must fit her cute bottle, loads of tissues, make up set. hehe.. Make Up set? didn't know u wore make up. haha. something new for me. People change per?> haa. Went to FarEast to eat. It's beside puncak. I was damn famish. But manners first. Didn't want to succumb to gluttony. I can see Hus wasn't that comfortable there. "wow, a lot ppl with different characters. hmm hope we'll not get into trouble" hahak. Knew it. Spoken like a true blue cina celup. haha.

Zul had to go for the party. Oh manz.. he miss the opp to impress Hus. Tkper bro.. next time ader. It was freakign hot. There's no breeze in town. Ohmygod! We walked from Wheelocks to Dhoby Ghout to Esplanade and there's no freaking wind. Hus was being quiet. Perhaps she's sad she missed her ManjaLara. Hey i'm sorry alright! I'll make it up to u next time. Well next week if what she say become reality, i'll be going to istana park after prayers. haha. see how ler if she really wanna go. Can bring zulfy. haha. Ask him to finish up the job. People may ask why i don't want to go in for the move. Cz i don't know. i'm waiting for AUGUSTOS!!! =p.. baru sangkut babe.

Well i hope u enjoy your day! sorry for the shortcomings.. Next week at istana k =).

Hope ur doing fine with your exams, Fi. yupz.. =).

khai

Yeah! i found a new spectacles. It's bit costly though. 250 bucks for a specs after some discussion bout the original price. Luckily they discounted 20bucks. It's a Nikon Specs. I didn't know camera produce specs. haha. Thanks to my sister who's my fashion consultant for yesterday and ibu for accompanying me and bought for me uber nice chendol and not so nice durian ice kachang for tini(=P.. AKu nyer sedap). Finally i can ditch the contact lenses for awhile. Period.

Just receive the news that wednesday is a school holidays. Well it's a good news and also a bad one. It's great as it give me a break but i'll miss my 65bucks for that day!!. Oh wells. Opportunity cost. I'll take the break. But of all days wednesday. The school's consipracy. I still need to face my sec 3N.Acad students. Tyrant. Well they are fine i think. I'm leaving soon so everything sounds fine with me. I'll writea a teacher's monolouge for the next teacher so as to look out for special students and those 'hyper' students. And i've yet to give the next set of detention sheets. But i think i'm giving one tml. Cz this particular student been skipping my lesson. What the hell. DOn't think i'll not give the blue slip young lady. I'm nice because i don't believe in it. I rather send them to clean the whole damn building if it need be to crack those undesirable behaviour of them.

And the return of the student from hell. Well i welcome you into my class. Hopefully the months in there change you for the better. Well ur first impression spoil it all boy. With that ciggies smells on ur shirt really. It's not a good start in my good clean books of you. Well we'll see your conduct. If not. In you go again my boy. I'll try my very best but i heard news going around they building up another thing for you. Well i shall wait and see how it goes. In the mean time, i beg please behave yourself. If not i can roughly know what's in store for you in the next future of yours.

Firstly i would like to thank azila. Thanks for the article babe. It does make my day but on the other hand sometimes people tend to look at material needs rather than small small things which make their life complete. They tend to disguise it as an excuse of practicalism. It's true but the essence of humanity is in question. The basic thing bout the Creation of Adam and Eve. Created to complement each other. To be in each other's companion. In times of happiness and hardship. Does Adam provide all the 5 Cs to Eve?. They don't even have clothes back then. So in question here is about being grateful. The idea of gratitutde in whatever you do and received. Not asking for more when what you had maybe more than what others get. Knowing the limit towards anything. Knowing moral fibres. Moral Fibres. The subject which is always in question.

The weather is freaking hot these days. I think i'm like God-Knows how many millions of His creation which is feeling the scorching heat. Been getting the undesirable MR M. MIGRAINE.Hopefully everything will turn good.

And one thing. I hope the Most Gracious will give me patients to wait again. Yet AGAIN. haha.. Ape ape jer lah..

 

Weee!! Bowling with cindy.. =) But should i go to NUS this thursday and ask her to give me a tour and not go for the bowling.? which one is more worth it. Well the former doesn't look quite certain. Perhaps i go there and got ditch again? hahaks. I'll see how lah.

 

Mr Migraine can you go away!!!!..

Khai

 

I'm damn angry at my students.
If they are stupid. i can accomodate
If they are smart. I can accomodate.
If they are ignorant. I can accomodate.
But i can't accomodate rudeness.
Mannerism is an utmost importance to a person. Even gangsters have manners. Without it even the worst scum is not worthy of your demeanour.

And one more thing...

Please lah.. Give me a clear answer can?... Ish.. susah lah. Nyerandu abis. Yes or No!! susah kaper nak jawab.


And you.. boleh belah!

Another thing.... ( A different person ) 

Can you don't stir something up yet again? Please lah.. i So beggin you alright.. If you don't want anything.. just don't come back.. Please i beg... Disturbing my mental state...


khai

It was superbly nice..

Except for some misdirections by my lovely frens Fiqah and Mat Rocks. Anyway thanks for the directions.. haha.. IT was really really funny. i hope i can go with that person. But oh wells what can i do.. Busy busy busy busy busy busy.. 24/7.. I hope i can be more understanding.. But oh wells.. everyone have 24 hours..

Thanks ata and syahidah for coming too.

Met loads of her frens and my frens over there.. It was kind of like a mini reunion.

AND I PASSED MY PRAC 7...

CAN BOOK TP!!! YIPPIEEE>.


khai

Haha.. lol.. Yesterday was tiring and funny.

Well i got no mood to teach the students but i'll do according to my lesson planned.

Let my student's took photos in my class. Can't be bothered. As long u do my work and u respect ur mates and me, for me i've done my job.

The whole day was a rush. N i don't like to rush things. Well i went to see fadz to go to nus. Well we meet loads of peeps on the way and i manage to know new peeps =p.. of course who else.

It was quite a smooth process although i had to deal with shocker shocker.. Everyone paid 30 bucks. I need to pay 90 bucks.. Fuhyoo!! Terbakar kocek boy. Well it's a  price to pay for everything nice. haah .. My queue no. was nice. 1235. Better if 1234. Lame shit. Went to take Xray n Urine test. I reallly hate Xrayz coz i'll have side effects soon after that. i'm feeling it now. Next is the drawing of blood. As usual the nurse miss my veins. It was funny as we laugh bout finding my veins. Can't blame her. Perhaps she's too tired. Now got two holes on both arms. Saddened =(.

Was so famish after that we had to head down to the nearest eatary. And i sure thing if i can't control me appetite i'll be a balloon in no time. It was nice and the price is superbly nice. I paid 2.30 bucks for a nasi padang of 1 meat + 2 vege. Was overwhelmed with joy.

i was so embarrassed. I ordered tea O my fren ordered tea. And the person asked me ten cent. Well perhaps i didn't hear it carefully but i think with the flourishing of mainlainders i heard as taste it. haha.. so i taste the drink on the spot and i say nice.. haha.. omg.. super paiseh can?????.. luckily only me and my fren seh.. if got chicks behind? dush dush.. malu seh.. haven't enrol dah buat blunders.. haha.

After that went home and chatted with hus. She is super funny lah.. Zulfiqar power lar!!! .. What is his charm? ANjat boboy. Until he can make her go meltz meltz.. haha.. Gasak kau lah hus.

Den at night went to chat with nadz till 2am. Wah! lame seh.. well enjoyed chatting with you pluz chatting with my new nus fren. like i say i manage to get to know a new fren...
rabak khai
rabakz...


Well nw i gd friday!

Khai

I'm feeling bit erratic. Very random. Perhaps caught some of ur random vibes eh ata? haha. Well seriously. I'm feeling bit sick. Since two weeks ago.

Perhaps i shouldnt really care and let things fall into place..

I saw this mcys video about relationship.
The quote that really ticked me is " Little imperfections that make it perfect for you.. ".. Sometimes when the person went away for loads of reasons, those little little habits will make u smile, cry, crave for. Well cherish the person before he or she leaves you, forever..

Need to do loads of work. I'm busy. But not that busy till...

khai

i survived april fool day from my student's onslaught yesterday. Phew. Nothing major happened. Well i was quite safe because i kind of know what kind of things they would do because i'm a student myself. And quite a cheeky student indeed.=p Well i was quite buzy yesterday. I went to go to SYF at S.C.H. Saw a few dramatic incidents. Saw some commotion at the Manpower building with loads of fire trucks and police cars. It's either there's someone committing suicide or it's just an exercise. But my guide feeling that it's a suicide case. Well as u can see the recession sometimes some people hit hard not like ur other counterpart.

Another dramatic event was the percussions didn't bring their scores to the S.C.H. haha. it was rather a panicky event. Well u train so hard just to be brought down by stupid missing of files. It's rather ridiculous or perhaps uncalled for. Asked Denzel to cab all the way down from Northland to S.C.H. Thanks a lot. We really thank you for coming as fast. It was tense. With me, mr han and mr faizal staying out and pacing left and right waitinf for our saviour with the files. haha.

Congrats to the band members. Although they got bronze. can really see their improvement. Its okay because as u can see the transition from the jun ngiap and sepuluh kesalahan wasn't that smooth. I understood because i myself undergo that kind of change when i was in secondary 1. So it's good =) Well keep it up. u got another two years to sound good.

Then went to SSC to meet up with hazy, lawyer and dog. HARSHANA!! PANG SEH.. nvr turned up. haha. It's okay. Hey i found a new haunt. SSC. Its kind of good. quite quiet. With starbucks, fish and co, subways, banquet and its not even occupied by customers.. perhaps wrong feng shui. but it looks good now. =)

Went to eat at Fish and Chicks.. The place is good. Gave u western delights. With handsome waiters and waitresses, i don't mind waiting =p. I was so smitten by the smiles of the waitress. haha.. Nazifah.. ish ingat jer khairuddin nie. Well she stumble upon my order. Perhaps nervous by my stares.. "dari kerana mata, yang mempunyai kuasa...." ouh cut the crap. Well i ordered hmm.. some beef dish.. hehe. .see i can even forget what i ate but i can remember what's her name.. haha.. I really love what hazy said.. " its free what.. if u look no need to pay ba?.. why not?".. it must be the march babies factor =p. then went to starbucks. OMG.. its really great. nice ambience. Lack only the library. If not it's rather complete. And i miss isyak =(. Forgive me God.

Well.. thursday wasn't that perfect i felt angry. just anger. Some pure anger.. Well i hope He'll not make my day 'hell' for the students. i don't like to vent my anger at anyone.

 

khai

I got so much things to say but so little vocab to describe it.

I was so sicked at night that i can't sleep well and had to visit the loo to excrete all those pleghms. I'm totally scared. I read about some article about TB is on the rise. Well i read all the signs and symptoms but fortunately its not one of those however i'm still being cautious. Well yah.. and little nadra is at my house =) hehe.. so cute. but she woke up at 4 am to cry! haha. and i just went to sleep around that time. But its okay. she crawled into my room haha.

Well, God i'm sorry that i missed ur isyaks. totally slept till 6.30am. Luckily i'm not late for school. Still coughing. Say byebye to mom and little naddy ( she drinking her bottle of milk sambil terkerokkerok(scratching) her head which is her fav past time) Zoom to school.

And i did some impromtu thingy again with them. Luckily sorted the newspapers in yesterday with the help of the sec 2s students. If not OMG. i can't do it all alone the whole time. Its really not in my jobscope. Shucks! Now she ask me to do an extra job. I kind of not agree with whatever she said. I means it's called double work. It's something not necessary. Because the principle of a punishment is really not clearly drawn. It's like not a complete one. I myself don't really believe in punishment like giving out detention because it's really pointless and a waste of precious time whereas i can make them stay back. I guess that's what i need to do.

Well my cough is still not over yet. But i think i won't go to the doctor. Because i think i'll still can manage the agony of having those tough cough pain in the chest. Well it's been a week. I'll just hold on. Keep Holding ooooonnn.. ahaha.. The song from avril lavigne.

Well, i dreamnt yesterday about being hani's boy. HANI's leh!!! it doesnt even cross my mind not even once in my lifetime. And my phone rang and rang and suddenly i woke up.

Back in school i gave all my students idioms test. Well i manage to get a lot of students to get punished. Of course the usual write lines.

Was lost doing all the work and suddenly i thought, hey did i pick up any calls yesterday night when i was feeling groggy after the cough medicines? i checked. Luckily only my dad. I don't know what i talked too. Need to ask him.

Well i dreamnt i pick up her calls and she says she's going home and i went out to fetch her. It was so real that's why i checked my phone and my feet. haha. Scared i sleep walk or something.

I talked about warm and fuzzy feeling to my teacher. I asked her what she understood by it. After much talked. I guess i know what i need. Well time will tell. Perhaps God will lead me to the right one, insyaAllah amin. Well everyone wants to be happy with that special someone. It doesnt need to be all mushy and love. It take two goals to click to create that special bond. The commitment, the responsibilities and other things which made a r/s work.

Like this sentence which all will know by now... It take two to tango. Or it take two hands to make a sound. If ur the only one moving.. Move on.

well its wednesday today. I lost my lesson planned for the day so yah.. i'm doing lesson's on an impromtu basis. i see the text book. i'll see what i can do.Okay enough of that.

Well its been a hectic week. i forget to set my class test papers instead i did my mid year exam papers. Oh great. That's why i felt something unusual when some teacher told me bout class test 2. haha. I missed a lot of deadlines. Oh well, part and parcel of being somethign call human being. Cg Nor is like 'sindiring' me. haha. She like Oh still in holiday mood khairuddin? haha.. haha oh pardon me. it's been a wonderful week. Too wonderful to do anything.

I've met a lot of people. Talk to a lot of people.Well i miss my students too. Ahaha.. just can't wait to see them and ask them about their week. Well i met my student even when i'm in malaysia. Oh gosh.. such a small world!.

I've been sick for the past few days. Perhaps after since my b'day i've been sick all the way. the cough just wont run away.. Shooo Shoo!. And the flu starts to come by and go like as if my nose is some hotel. cheh! ahah. And i seriously think my life is really really interesting. I mean i'll take everything one step at a time.

In the wise words of someone which i know dearly but unfortunately not so pleasant encounter..

"if it meant to be yours, no matter how far we go, it will still come back and be as one.."

Time check 12.05pm Yeah. 3 more periods and i'm eating lunch! Well i feel like asking tini to acc me to Jln Kerbau to take the tickets. ! haha. Hartini follow abang can?

 

And i just bought another 3 red pens for the third time in the whole month!!!!!!! WTHEAVEN.. STUDENTS BEEN STEALING MY RED PENS!!!

I dont know what i want to say but i just want to thank God for what happened to me these days. I think it's a blessing or perhaps another story that He wants me to know that there's hope at the very start of every misery. I hope insyaAllah, He'll show me what is right and what is wrong. I don't want to take a step that will lead me to another downfall. Oh God, please help me.

Thanks friends and relatives who helped me over the years. Thank you so much.

I can't wait for my prac 7. URGH! i failed my prac 7 due to a slope???????????????.... Can't take that insult. Well insyaAllah the next time i should pray first so that i can calm myself down haha. Amin.

And hopefully ur back safely =)

khai

Hey there my precious blog =) i'm being so emotional today. Don't know why? haha. Oh my. Well as i look back upon what happened this week, it's just another day in boring Mr Khairuddin's life. But perhaps what boring means to me is another exciting event to another person's perspective. I start the week with a test to my Technical class. It was totally wicked i thought. And it really do. I got half the class failed the test and my other counterpart class practically three quarter fail the test. I'm so sorry students. I thought it was managaeable since the sub head approved it. Well, then i taught loads of students about r/s stuff like don't be sad coz there's another one made for you, InsyaAllah( With God's Willing ). And i always shared my own and other's personal experiences so that it will made them think that it's no the end of the world. Now you are just there to learn =) Be a good student and study as far as possible. If it comes our way just grab it but still maintain our stand as a student, a good asian oriented people.

I watched two floorball games with Ata and other teachers. It was exhilirating( i hope the spelling is right). Both team play wonderfully. It was a wonderful match. Congrats to the girls and boys team.

I'm sorry to my dearest friend coz i can't make it to your concert. I miss you really loads though! Forgive me yah. Perhaps we can meet up some time just sitting down and talk bout you and me =)

Failed my prac 6.2. It's really my fault!.

I just marked my 135th papers =)

Just feel like eating Popeye! Anybody want to accompany me?.

I really miss that person..

And i'm turning 21 soon. Happy birthday to Fizo(zorrro) and Husna!! Theirs is today.

Feel soo old. What can i achieve? can i achieve what i want?. Am i a failure?.

 

Khai

 

It was a friday. I didn't have the mood to do work but all went well for i did all my stuff with the students. I wasnt skiving ok!. Almost all my students went for the concer. Poor Atiqah (my sec 2 stud), she's sick so she gave her tix to dont know who. Hope she's fine, up and running by monday in school.

Well i did all the required activities and chatted with the malay teacher after prayers. It was pretty funny. They were cracking jokes all. It felt like a family conversation. Went back to pack my stuff. Waited for the paper that never come. Oh well. Means i must photocopy myself and come super early on monday. shucks.! And then the phone call and smses start streaming in. All asking me what to wear for P.A? oh my oh my. some even the parents called asking me what to wear!!! argh!!.. but it was funny but after the 20th call. its no longer funny. haha.  

Rushed to Giordano to get sweater vest. They don't sell it. Urgh!. So went to G2000 to get something nice. Well i bought a long sleeve shirt and a nice shirt. haha.. and they absorb 7%  gst that day! wow! ended up paying only 67bucks only instead of 76. haha.

Rushed back to wash up n all n to the cold storage to buy tini flowers and the rest chocs.

Ata was late too so we shared a cab to RP. Along the way picked up Twilight and Indera.

It was glitz galore. Some dressed up. "Cikgu lawa tak kite orang??"(teacher, we looked pretty/handsome right?). " Anak-anak murid cikgu semua handsome dan lawa lawa belaka" (yes indeed). haha. But really they dress up for the occasion. Well i didnt manage to seat with my friends but okay lah. its nice being emo sitting alone with the students.

Concert went well. and some really caught my attention. The band did well too. Superb. Except for some glitch. Michelle look bit relax after the 'acting training' by me during MT lesson. haha.

Malay dance was breathtaking. So fluid and nice to watch.

Well after the whole event. The funniest thing ever happened.
My students mom took photo with me!!!

And one of the students sister took photo with me too. She was so shy. But hey she's quite cute u know ! haha.. =) well.

Then went lepak(hang out) with the fizo and aqim. Syidin tak J ar.. haha.. nevermind next time alright! want to ask Hana along but its bit too late.

Then went home at 3am. wow!!.. haha

It was a fine day.
And i seriously think the girl is cute ! =p


khai

Today one of my buds finished her contract for relief teaching. Well how do i feel? hmm.. well i think teaching as a profession is really an independent work. I mean in terms of army i would to call it Commando or Recognaisance. You go in alone and battle and get as much as you can get and then fall back into ur own territory (staff room) to relax and resupp?.. haha.. its a funny expression by which its military-like but applied to the idea of teaching. Well i still got loads of marking to do.

She told me how her students reactions when she's leaving. I was quite amazed. Not amazed just happy for her that she touched so many life. And making them feel that they existed in the world for something which is good learning for. I hope i can impart that kind of feeling when i leave school. I want to see my kids not having problems going up the ladder of success. And i hope they will go through with loads of useful experience rather than trivial and yet hurting experience. Like i say to them why not you learn from others and not go through the hurtful and painful experience than going it through yourself and feeling it?.

As long as you lean something in life apply it to the next and share it with the rest. Perhaps you can help them do to their best ability. =)

Suddenly i miss talking to her. She called me using her house phone. Ahaha. Just to ask me bout some opinion. Felt honoured and yet longing to hear that voice again.

oh crap...



Khairuddin
=)

I slept from 6pm yesterday till 4am today. It was the nicest sleep ever. I just finish the 'marathon' for the week. and i need the rest because my wrist is seriously injured plus my left thumb i guess its not functioning well. Perhaps i'll go for an xray for my thumb coz it can't bend properly and swells and not like the other thumb. God forgive me for missing maghrib. I just Ko-ed.

I dreamt a lot of things. I dreamt of fidelia, lala, tini ( my sister ), my family, khairon, athirah, little nadra, little irdina, wak yati, my nyai, her nyai, hada, OSN, my students: khor lee nah, Zaidog, izyan, hakim, quratuain, witch, her and a lot more which i only recognise by face.

It was the weirdest dream and the longest one. But  the most emotional part was the last part. " Will you still give another try?". I said " It's hard. I don't think so. " and the dream fades off and it's 4am  I don't know why i'm so emotional. I just miss her at times though i did went out with few people this two months. 4 to be exact.

Hey tasha and that student of mine!! Thanks for the brownies and hersheys to tasha. The browny part hehe only me and you know ar. And for that student of mine. It's so sweet of you to bake brownies for me. Poor girl had to wake up and do. And thanks to your cadbury chocs =) i felt so honoured. I'm so sorry to tasha. haha. i did buy something but i left at home. perhaps i'll bake some cheesecake and give it to you yup =).

today i got prac5 test. i hope i pass. insyaAllah amin.

khai

                        In life everyone has friends. Some have friends from mix genders. Some have more friends from the opposite gender. Well the basic thing is that everyone has friends. true? Well but sometimes you can't help it but fall for your friends.True? Well because we love that person or that lot of people that you cant see them suffer for a bit and always feel their pain.

                       These days i always wonder why i've always been happy. I don't understand. This thing stretches way back to secondary school days. I remembered that someone told me something until now it still rings in my ears. Coz friends are love. Why she said that? What's with that which made her change? well now i understand. Perhaps in Ns i wasn't looking forward to see friends.

                       The bottom line is, now i have my own time to mix around with friends. Well nowadays i realise one thing. The meaning behind friends are love. Well i got loads of friends from the opposite gender. Well its something quite a number can testify to that. Well i'm very comfortable with some of them. I understand that the bond that we have is so special. I don't know how to describe it.

                         When we see eye to eye, we know its there but its not possible. When we joke together we can feel it but we know it's not possible. When one feels sad, the other will feel sad. When we just look at each other, the whole world seems to stop. We smile at each other sweetly but with a tinge of bitter coz we know that we cant be with each other. Well sometimes i do felt the urge. I know the other do felt the urge to say it out. But we know it's not possible. And yet when others see us, it seems we are more than friends but we know it's not possible. My entry seems confusing. Because i myself am confuse what is the explaination behind it. Because its not happening to one particular friend. But a a group of it.

what is it?

sometimes we wonder why we need to search for the other half when we feel so comfortable with each other? Our friends complete our half. What's the point of having one?. So is that the meaning of friends are love?

What is it?

I always wonder that fact. Haha! Well humans are full of contradiction. Saying one thing and doing another. haha. To God be the Glory. He created us this way.



khai

i'm waiting for university. I'm waiting for 8 months. I'm doing relief teaching now. That's a fact that most of my friends know. Before i know it, now is week 5. Next week is week 6. And perhaps before i know it. I'll turn 21 years old. Omg. I'm so old. So many people turning 21. I dont know whether to feel happy or sad about it. Coz this year.....

I dont want to talk bout it.

Before i know it. i'm entering all those camps. And i hope i make a difference in loads of those students of mine back in NSS. I really love all of you. So full of energy and so full of life. I hope you guys wont D.O halfway. i really pray for all ur success.


Khai

We can never turn time back. Regrets and failures are not a negative part in life. There's no negative things in life. It's just that we are not wise enough or experience enough. Which is why we need to go through it =)